Paul Walker and Roger Rodas

So On November 30 2013, which is 2 days ago, the famous actor Paul Walker died by a car accident.

One of his good friends, Roger Rodas, driving a red Porsche Carrera GT with Paul as a passenger, crashed into a tree a pole and some other object and it ended up with tragic results: both of them lost their lives.

Those are the facts available on the net, what bothers me is all those posts I see on Facebook about people not caring about Roger Rodas, or people not caring about American soldiers dying in the war or some other statements involving people only caring about celebrates.

Guys, it's not about how many people care. Obviously when someone is a movie star and millions of people have been entertained by him, they will be saddened at his loss. Millions of people die every day, one cannot care about everyone simultaneously. The average person will care about the people they know, and especially the people they care about... that's why we use the word CARE.

But my perspective on things isn't only this, because I think everyone should care about everyone, we should all acknowledge other people's presence and contributions to this world as we all make this world better if not worse.

What I'm thinking is, It doesn't matter if millions of people aren't saddened by the death of someone, what matters is how much good that person have done in their lives. Your goal shouldn't to make people sad about your death, but to make people happy while you are alive.

I think everyone should care and have the decency to respect Paul Walker's death as much as any body else's. People should acknowledge the innevitable consequences of being famous, more people will be sadned. That doesn't mean that no one cares about the other people who die.

Every good person has people who care about them, and when they leave us, the close ones will be extremely sadned, and one shouldn't value this sadness... Sorrow is a painful fealing. But it also means that they have been happy durring that person's presence, and that is what counts.

sorry for repeating myself so many times.

Have a good day.

Everyday I go through the same thoughts, the thoughts that are pushing me forward but preventing me from going any further at the same time. It have been some time that my life looks like a vicious circle, and I'm not sure if it's due to those same the thoughts or if it's due to my perspective on things. Everyday I would tell myself I want to improve and become a better person but most of the time, something seems to make me forget about what I want and it seems to push me towards the choices that make my day go in vain. This seems to happen everyday.
I want to be able to keep the mindset of wanting to become better. I cannot keep it. The neglecting mindset seems to always win in the battle. There's many things I neglect in my life, things I should be respecting and spending proper time to. However, I prefer to zone out, create a bubble in which i can stay comfortably without anything or anyone bothering me.
It seems like I need that silence, but why so much of it ? Am I simply an introvert ? Or, do I need to concentrate on something that I have not yet discovered; something that can help me to not falling from my path and resting for arbitrary amount of times, more often than not. It really is hard to know what is there to correct.
I have been wondering often about going to Japan. I want to live in Japan. Not only Japan, Tibet also, China is a possibility or India. Any place that could allow me peace and tranquility. And sometime I wonder if i should get a dog, to be on my side and help me feel not too lonely. I thought of getting an Italian Greyhound, because they seem best fitted for apartment life. But it seems like all I want to do is get rid of my loneliness or learning how to coop with it. I wanted to go to Tibet to learn how to meditate and become spiritually richer, and learn how to be peaceful and calm. I wanted to go to Japan to learn the martial art of Karate, to condition my mind and my body to proper discipline, and I thought I could also train my spirituality there. China and India are just two other options, I have not looked too much into it.
I have also been thinking that I might be developing some psychological abnormality due to social isolation. And I thought it maybe is best for me, I was never really feeling fit in society, although people say they like me. So I thought maybe the alternative mentioned above could free me from the social phobia i have developed. I'm not sure anymore if it's confusion, introversion, social phobia, or collateral damage of my thoughts.
I have been wanting a girlfriend too. I started being a little bit more interested in girls recently. For the last couple of years, girls have been bothering me. I've had trust and lack of interest issues. My sexuality is however triggered every time a female human beauty is around, but as soon as I think of me being in couple, it seemed like it was doom. However recently, in the last few months, I've been a little bit more open towards it. I have also been suffering a little bit more. I'm not sure why however, if it's due to my desire to be with someone and not being with someone or... something else that is still vague.

I'm having some issues. And that's why I started this post. My issues are mainly self control related. I think I'm quite good when it comes to self consciousness and self knowledge but... when it comes to self-control, the world seems to spin a little to fast and I don't have the patience, courage, energy, and power to follow. I'm finding it quite difficult to find someone to talk to honestly, people seem to judge from their own perspective and not willing to move anywhere else, and it's putting pressure on me.

I'm working in two hours and a half so I have to start getting ready for work. I also need to clean up the house. I also need to buy a cable for a friend. I need to repair my car. I need to repair my AC. I need to repair my uncle's computer... There are so many things I need to do and I'm just not willing to do them.

Good day

tired

I guess I am too tired right now to post anything else. I will hopefully not give up and keep posting later !

Finally Blogging

Beginning of eDadou's Blogging

I'm feeling the urge recently of expanding or growing. I don't know in what sense exactly but I am not satisfied with my situation right now. Although I don't believe in satisfaction/"state of comfort" since it is a counter-force of success; however short and intense satisfactions are a sign of healthy lifestyle.

I think that many things aren't very clear in my mind right now and I need to settle down in my world. I guess it is the phase through which we all go through at this age (16-23).

In any case this brings me to my main point of this post : I feel the urge right now to Blog all my interests on the net and basically just to see what would be the WWW's reaction.

I will make blogs related to:

• Photography
• IT (My PC and Equipment which is already created since last year for a school project)
• Work
• School
• and my life (this one)

I hope someone will enjoy them, at least myself.

PEACE !

Linux is pissing me off

I am really frustrated about Linux.
The idea is lovely.
apparently you can seek help anywhere on the net.
i have installed many versions of linux on many of my computers at home but i always encountered a problem that ended up discouraging me.
I am frustrated, i am disapointed, and i just feel like punching my dad's laptop's screen.
I heard about Linux Mint which is supposedly "very user friendly".
I need to set up an internet connection but i do not have advanced network knowledge so now i am stuck.
I lost 2 hours searching for a solution on forums and blogs that are linux related but i didn't find anything that helped me.
Usually it doesn't take me more than 3 minutes finding the solution for any IT problem when using google as a search tool. With linux, it seems much more difficult than that it is extremely frustrating.
i am so pissed right now... i am writing this to get rid of my rage but it seems like nothing would help me being frustrated against the unease of access to help for setting up linux properly.
i am really discouraged but i really want to know how to use linux properly.
on some versions website they claim that it is not so difficult contrairly to what people believe but f*ck... then why am i having so much trouble FINDING THE SOLUTION not even applying it... IT IS NOT EVEN A MATTER OF APPLYING THE SOLUTION BUT JUST FINDING IT.
fuck i'm so pissed.

Stockholm

After a long time i did not reach my blog, I decided to go back to it and here I am !

I am in stockholm right now and having fun playing with my computer while everyone around me is sleeping !

That’s All I have to say for the moment hopefully later i will be posting some stuff… maybe in a year or so !

HELLOOOOOOOO !!! this is my first post..... Just to see how it works.... and i'll be working on this blog soon !